_.::'::._ Unhappy-World _::'::._

2011-12-17T23:07:00.003+08:00

Just some random song to make my blog look more alive.
Enjoy~

2011-12-04T18:48:00.001+08:00

Held my birthday celebration yesterday
My birthday is on 8 Dec actually
But due to the fact that i'm stuck in army
Gotta celebrate it earlier man
Anyway...
Quite touched to see everyone
Despite having not seen each other for so long time
And the fact that we have not been in much contact
I'm touched and happy to see everyone

Thanks to everyone for their wishes, presents and their 'presence' at my celebration.
Hope to see everyone again.

As time passes, i get more and more fearful.

Of the things i am going to lose in the future.

People say that you will gain something in return for what you have lost.

But so far, i find that i have only been losing things, not gaining anything in return

Now, i am only scared of losing you.

Someone who doesn't belongs to me but yet holds an important place in my heart.

I dedicate this to you.

2011-11-12T00:25:00.001+08:00

Mann..
There are so many things that i want to do.
Learn Karate
Learn Boxing
Learn Muay Thai
Learn Cooking
Learn Computer skills
Travel around
But...
...
ARMY IS TAKING UP TOO MUCH TIME!
(And the pay isn't that good to satisfy these "wants" =.=ll)

I better not degrade myself and let assholes to push me around anymore. Yeah, it's better to make more friends than enemies. Yeah, "忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空". But it still fucking takes 2 hands to clap. Just because i give in all the time doesn't gives you the right to push me around. It's getting more and more fucked up how i put up with your stupid actions and let you push me around just because i don't want to cause trouble and lose a friend. From yesterday's incident i hope you will fucking understand that the problem is not with us, it's with you. "Talk big" "Can't afford to play" "No manners" "Irritating". You better jolly well change your attitute, asshole!

2011-10-29T19:53:00.001+08:00

Hello to any .. people out there viewing this blog. LONG LONG time no blog. Ahaha. Well, can't be helped, i was busy with NS.

I was enlisted on the 1st of August. Stayed in Tekong for 4 weeks for BMT. I'm a ex-ULYSSES recruit now though. "PAH-BUEY-TOH! GUSTO"! After training at Tekong, i got posted to Sembawang Camp for 5 weeks BMT Vocational training. I was posted to the Medic group. However, don't be mistaken though. My vocation is "Dental Assistant". Yeah, i know it's weird too. First time in my life i have heard about this vocation. So after passing out from Sembawang Camp, i was posted to the Nee Soon Camp for 10 weeks Medic training. My training is different from other medics because i am under Service Medic group. So i have 2 weeks lesser training than those Combat Medic group. I am now still at Nee Soon Camp training. 7 weeks more to go before i get posted to my unit where i reckon i will be staying throughout my NS life.

Training was ok-ok. Physical training was relaxed, but mental training was ... abit tough. What kind of MENTAL training you ask? Mental Training from watching pictures or videos about those gruesome injuries people get. For example, pictures of amputated limbs, videos of blood spurting from a wound, etc etc. I still got 8 more IVs to go though, kinda depressing. But it's ok. At least my sergeant's got a point. Compared to other vocations like storeman, my vocation is teaching us lifeskills, "How to save other people". It's like more meaningful than the other vocations from what he said. Because like infantry or other vocation, once they passed out from NS, they would not be able to use their skill anywhere. But that is not the case for Medics. Lol, it seems funny how i'm like boasting about my vocation but i still don't like my vocation. Ahaha. Ok then, that's all for today. Better devote my book out moments on other things too. Hahaha.

"Why does rat poison has an expiry date? Does it mean that rat poison taste better if it's expired?"

2011-07-16T12:28:00.000+08:00

Haiz, i'm not working anymore. My last day is yesterday. First time feel quite sad to stop working. Think because in all my working experiences, this is the best one yet. Having so many friendly people in the working environment. Why do i need to go army... If not can "lepak" there more (not that i'm not doing any work), just that it's chilling working there. Sad =(

Man, i am so into korean songs. Initially, i don't understand why people like listening to songs they don't understand what they are singing. But now i realized "Music is a form of language". Hahaha. CN BLUE, BIG BANG, SNSD, LEESSANG! YO DA BEST! XD

2011-06-21T22:54:00.003+08:00

Are you happy now?
Constantly causing these kind of troubles.
Can't you just be wiser?
You know how to preach to us.
But you don't know how to practise what you preach.
I'm so disappointed in you.
I solemnly swear that i'll nv follow your footsteps!

I know you are vexed. But i'm 21 already. I'm no longer an ignorant child who doesn't know anything. You can share with me. Instead of acting in front me everything is fine, don't you realize that it's more worrying that way?

2011-06-19T20:31:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU, SHAZAM!
=D

2011-06-12T20:58:00.004+08:00

Man...
If i have the chance to go overseas again, i'm so going to...
JAPAN (to experience the food and hot springs there)
TAIWAN (to go there and play)
SEOUL (to go find Kang Gary's restaurant)
USA (to go there and play)

But i guess i have to wait until i complete my NS and earn more money, so that i have more "financial support" if i ever go these places.

2011-06-04T20:59:00.009+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY!!! It's been a long time since i last updated. Well, i'm too busy with working ever since i started working. Everyday is a tiring day for me. Waking up at 6 plus and sleeping at 11pm. Ahaha.

Anyway, i FINALLY graduated from NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC on last friday 27/5. Kinda sad though, i wonder whether the same thing as my secondary school days will happen again. I'm starting to miss my classmates... (maybe not for all =S)

Yeah, i also came back from Phuket trip with Anyu, Zhiyuan, Clarence, Shiyan and Zihao on 31/5. It's a FUN and ENJOYABLE trip. Too bad, it was only 3 days and 3 nights. Perhaps next time we should organize a 1 week trip instead.

PS: Pardon me for only uploading SOME of the many pictures taken because i like showing group photos. =)

2011-04-04T00:46:00.007+08:00

Watched 黃靖倫's PK爱情
Had ter wake up at 9AM to catch it on xinmsn
It's like, the FIRST time waking up so early since the holiday started.
Well, it's not bad.
Quite funny
And unique too, because people can vote for how they want show to go on.

Cupid偶尔也会射错箭。
只不过呢，他从来没有射过你罢了。
EVIL~

2011-04-01T00:40:00.004+08:00

Alright, it's a new month. Time to STOP the SLACKING and start the JOB-HUNTING. Been doing all the same things everyday that it's starting to bore the pants off me. Eat, Sleep, Bathe, Exercise, Watch shows, Play games. B-O-R-I-N-G!!!

Now waiting for 2 new dramas to come out, 黃靖倫's PK爱情 on the 4/4 and 楊丞琳's 醉後決定愛上你 on the 17/4. Damned, can't wait. =)

2011-03-25T00:31:00.001+08:00

O-M-G! The final result for my poly is finally out and ... I MANAGED TO HIT MY TARGET OF ENDING POLY WITH A GPA 3! Ok, i know i know. It is actually quite little and i can't get into any university, but STILL a freaking 3. I managed to maintain the GPA 3 from my attachment. Despite the lousy performance in the last semester, at least managed to do myself justice. Now thinking back, it still bring a surge of "guilt"...

2011-03-18T23:20:00.002+08:00

I love taking long bus trips
Air-conditioned environment
Looking out at the scenery flashing pass
Listening to my music

This is the real "chilling".

2011-03-14T23:12:00.003+08:00

Walking home with my secondary school friend and my friend's primary school friend makes me wonder. "What is needed in order to maintain a friendship for at least 10 years and keep it going strong?" Until now, i still doesn't seem to know the answer.

2011-03-03T19:41:00.003+08:00

IT IS FINALLY THE END OF POLYTECHNIC LIFE!

(assuming that i pass that god-damned module today)

That's all.

I need a freaking break.

2011-03-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

FREAKING HATE

THE WAY

MY MUM TREATS ME

LIKE A GULLIBLE KID!

2011-02-27T13:53:00.004+08:00

i freaking hate it when i am so dead-beat but i can't fall asleep. It has been happening since the entire of last week. The worse record was that, i went to sleep at 1am but i keep rolling here and there on my bed until it's 4am before i finally slept. Even the stupid "focusing on a blank piece of paper" strategy didn't work. I really wish that a brain is like a hard-disc. This way, i would be able to clear out all the things that i don't want to think about. Dear Kami-sama, i don't care if i die in return. Just help me fulfil this wish.

I don't know, i can't feel
I'm so lonely, 你听见了吗？

2011-02-14T20:22:00.002+08:00

挖晶 ... 剥鸡
=(

2011-02-14T00:04:00.004+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day

bwsd

2011-02-12T21:24:00.002+08:00

I keep feeling shivering scared nowadays. Maybe it's because of these 3 reasons...

One: ___________________
Two: ___________________
Three: __________________

Get lost, Fear.

2011-02-10T13:38:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Clarence! Today went to play paintball to commemerate the birth of Clarence. AHAHA! People who turned up are .. Clarence, Shiyan, Junru, Anyu, Meizhen, Zhiyuan, Zihao and me. I guess all of us had fun during the paintball game, though the session was too short. After that, we went to a japanese buffet and headed to a Party - World session. After that, we went for dinner and returned home.

~HEROES OF THE DAY~

魔幻世界... Ring a bell?

2011-02-05T21:04:00.007+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
got quite a bit of Ang-Pows
but no luck for this year
lost around $20 in gambling
my auntie gave me a MAHJONG set
but too ... cutesy already
because it is a HELLO-KITTY mahjong set
cant bear to open it though
it's brand new and all ...
ok, that's all for today folks
tuddles~

2011-01-31T12:52:00.001+08:00

Oh, how nice is that? You didn't even tell me the topics and now what, you want to double-check with me the topics? How am i supposed to know? What the hell is wrong with you? Just go suck on some mayonnaise in your afterlife, dude.

SHUT THE HELL UP ABOUT THINGS YOU DON'T KNOW, ASSKID!

2011-01-30T12:43:00.000+08:00

Seriously, i thought you were helpful. But now my impression of you have changed dramatically thanks to your "help" today. Perhaps i should not mention today ONLY. All along your "help" is like "it-is-better-for-me-to-ask-a-wall-than-to-ask-you". How helpful is that? Seriously, just go bang the wall and die.

Why are this kind of people so seriously "BIRD"? Be gone, "BIRD" people!

2011-01-29T17:58:00.002+08:00

Been thinking about this for the past few nights
I had decided long ago that i would help you ease your burden
But now that i think about it...
It turns out that i am the biggest burden
Ironic, isn't it?

What should i do!?

2011-01-16T21:50:00.002+08:00

WHAT THE HECK MAN!?
NOT EVEN ONE!?
WHAT WAS MY HARDWORK OVER THE LAST WEEK FOR!?
DAMMIT!

Joke of the Day
In NS, there is grenade throwing training. When the recruits throw the grenade, they must shout "GRENADE!" before throwing. However, there is this UNIQUE recruit. When he threw the grenade, instead of shouting "GRENADE!" like the others, he shouted ... "PIKACHU! I CHOOSE YOU!". What was his result? Detention barracks for 4 weeks. ~The End~

2011-01-11T20:06:00.006+08:00

I don't like the way people keep saying that i'm skinny or fit when they cannot see the places where my fats are CONCENTRATED. It's like ... look at it from this point of view. I am heavy. It is ok to bluff it through with "i have heavy bones" at the start. But when the weight constantly increase, it is impossible that the bones is gaining weight right? So it is obviously that i am getting FATTER/PLUMPER. Man, i better discipline myself and do exercises everyday to reduce the weight. Dammit.

Please don't be such an ASSKID. P-L-E-A-S-E! You are just freaking wasting our time with your stupid attention-seeking actions. If you want to waste time, go ahead. But don't drag the whole bunch of people down together with you. _l_ (._.) _l_

2011-01-09T21:18:00.001+08:00

Thanks to Xiang Yang for this song.
Nice of you giving me all these funny songs to listen to.
=D

I see you driving 'round town
With the girl i love and i'm like,
Fuck you!
Oo, oo, ooo
I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough i'm like,
Fuck you!
And fuck her too!
I said, if i was richer, i'd still be with ya
Ha, now ain't that some shit? (ain't that some shit?)
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Fuck you!
Oo, oo, ooo

Yeah i'm sorry, i can't afford a ferrari,
But that don't mean i can't get you there.
I guess he's an xbox and i'm more atari,
But the way you play your game ain't fair.
I picture the fool that falls in love with you
(oh shit she's a gold digger)
Well
(just thought you should know nigga)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
Yeah go run and tell your little boyfriend

Now i know, that i had to borrow,
Beg and steal and lie and cheat.
Trying to keep ya, trying to please ya.
'Cause being in love with you ass ain't cheap.
I picture the fool that falls in love with you
(oh shit she's a gold digger)
Well
(just thought you should know nigga)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
i really hate yo ass right now

Now baby, baby, baby, why d'you wanna wanna hurt me so bad?
(so bad, so bad, so bad)
I tried to tell my mamma but she told me
"this is one for your dad"
(your dad, your dad, your dad)
Uh! Whhhy? Uh! Whhhy? Uh!
Whhhy lady? Oh! I love you oh!
I still love you. Oooh!

2011-01-03T00:53:00.002+08:00

Turns out it really didn't work out...
But it's still not the time to give up.
It's time to work harder!!

Oh my god, i just saw few days ago. "She" likes guys who are at least 175cm. I gotta work hard for this sweet delusion. AHAHAHA!

何必明知故问呢？

2011-01-01T16:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MMXI!!
1 year left till 2012 DOOMSDAY!!
AHAHAHA!!

Gintama
Aw, it's a new year again. It passed by so fast, it's depressing. The older you grow, the faster one year seem to pass. At this rate, by the time i become an old man, one year will pass as fast as a Formula One car race. No no, actually it's already as fast as Ben Johnson's running speed. Don't be all complacent just because you're young, Ben will shortly be after you, too.

2010-12-29T18:20:00.001+08:00

Why??
I don't understand...

為什麼、為什麼、為什麼
為什麼天空會有雲？
為什麼飛機會飛行？
為什麼月亮有時圓有時又不圓？

烏拉博士，來說明
十萬個為什麼告訴你，十萬個為什麼

為什麼、為什麼、為什麼
為什麼孔雀會開屏？
為什麼螃蟹要橫行？
為什麼海水有時低有時又變高？

為什麼、為什麼、為什麼
歡迎小小朋友做貴賓
可愛動物陪伴你

2010-12-25T18:40:00.002+08:00

KYAHOO! !
It's RAINING! !
I can't see a single thing outside.
I like this kind of rain.
Because it's cooling~
(~.~)

There's only 1 week left...
I think i can't hit my target anymore...
I want to “吃得少，但是吃得多”!!

2010-12-20T09:30:00.002+08:00

Damned, this song is da bomb.
I like the piano and the part from 2.55 until the end.
The guy looks as though his veins are gonna burst any moment.
Best comment - "I thought this song was by Nelly, but it was just a dream."
Ahahaha
You guys can try checking out his other videos.
They are not bad too.
=D

2010-12-16T22:59:00.005+08:00

DAMNED!
Doctor says no running
Mummy says no running
I says ...
...
...
"Secretly go running"
AHAHA!

Just because i keep giving in, doesn't mean that i am a wuss and can be pushed around. The reason i keep giving in is because i consider you as a friend and doesn't mind you making jokes of me. But to use that to keep pushing me around, i'm sorry to say, i wouldn't take that shit any longer. The next time you "challenge" me, you can be sure that i will not hold back anymore. K-O-R-O-S-E.

2010-12-14T15:03:00.003+08:00

我像忘了时间的钟
一分一秒的过
却不知道越走错越多
忘了时间的钟
每个人都在笑我
忘了时间的钟
滴滴答答不休
转啊转啊转啊
别管我
忘了时间的钟
好难过
呜
爱到最后
省什么
谁告诉我

His 阴阳桑 is still as amazing as ever, though i like him better with his long hair. =.=ll.

2010-12-11T00:48:00.000+08:00

3 weeks holiday
1 target planned
Will i be able to do it? ...

2010-12-09T01:25:00.004+08:00

It really hurts a lot to know that you are sad, but all i can do was pretend that i don't know anything. I may not know what is happening, but the fact that you are sad is staring right in my face. The saddness that lingered behind those fake smiles. The sad look you had when you weren't talking. I think the only thing i can do, is to not interrupt your "performance". I just hope that you will get better soon ..

2010-12-08T00:50:00.005+08:00

The day that i dread so much has came eventually, my birthday. People find that celebrating birthdays is a good thing. But in my personal opinion, it is nothing much except for a day. But nevermind, i shall just take it that the change from "1" to "2" in my age, marks a change in my life. As for such, i have decided to change the bad habits i have.

One: No more vulgarities
Two: Keep my temper in check
Three: Always show that you are happy although inside you are scolding "DAMNED"

-End of Part 1-

Meizhen/Zhiyuan: Hey alvin, what gift do you want to have?
*thinking very seriously*
Me: I think ... i want a time machine.
Meizhen/Zhiyuan: You want to get beaten up ar?
LOL!!

But thanks alot to anyu, meizhen, zhiyuan and zihao, for celebrating my birthday today. Especially to anyu and meizhen because anyu doesn't seem to be getting enough sleep and meizhen got leg cramp from walking too much. I really appreciate them for taking the time off and going out together. Thank you very, very much for the company and present. =)

My birthday wish is ... "I wish the PEOPLE who i CARE about deeply will be HAPPY."

2010-12-05T23:12:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

2010-12-05T23:10:00.001+08:00

Do you know ...
...
...
...
"There is no need for you to be so scared of me."

2010-12-01T23:46:00.003+08:00

My eyes feel so fit after lifting 5kg eyelids accumlated from yesterday.

Person 1: Hey, can you help me throw this tissue away?
Person 2: Eee, use the plastic to cover the sweaty tissue before passing to me.
Person 1: Ai ya, nevermind one la. The sweat already dry up.
Person 2: Like that next time i shit already i wipe, then the shit dry already you help me throw away.
Person 1: ...

2010-11-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i went to my classmate, Shiyan, 21st birthday party. Her birthday is on 6 December actually. It was my first time going to Coastal Sands Resort. The facilities are quite good there. The birthday cake was made by Shiyan's friend. It looks nice and taste nice. So anyway, we played there, chatted there, drank there, and slept there. Everything is pretty much the same as a normal chalet. Shiyan's parents were very friendly to us, and keep giving us food from the buffet and BBQ (good for me, not the others. ahahaha). We went home today at around 11am today. Tired to the max. Ok then time for beddy bed. Before i end this... THANK YOU SHIYAN FOR THE ENJOYABLE DAY and thank you clarence for driving us. =D

I better don't say anymore about "611" or "2011". Better don't make a fool out of myself (though i already did). Although the "trust" is pretty much destroyed by me, i've decided to cherish the remaining "trust" that i'm left with.

2010-11-25T19:52:00.004+08:00

Man...
Sooo hungry...
Feels like eating...

"Aijisen - Ramen"
"MacDonald's - Big Breakfast"
"Pizza Hut - Sweet 'N' Spicy Drumlets"
"Pizza Hut - Cream of Chicken/Mushroom"
"Pizza Hut - Hawaiian Pizza"
"Starbucks - Chocolate Chip"
"Yaki Yaki Bo - Teppanyaki"

"Gotta eat while you can"

2010-11-21T00:53:00.002+08:00

Mr Raindrop, falling away from me now
Mr Raindrop, falling away from me now
Mr Raindrop, falling away from me now
Mr Raindrop, falling away from me now

Do you know how much you mean to me
Why must you leave
I'm just a flower on a tree
Why must you leave

Mr Raindrop, falling away from me now
Mr Raindrop, falling away from me now
Mr Raindrop, falling away from me now
Mr Raindrop, falling away from me now

2010-11-20T15:40:00.002+08:00

"What came first, the phoenix or the flame?"

Answer: 611

2010-11-20T15:31:00.002+08:00

celebrated anyu's birthday yesterday
collected our specs before going anyu's house slack
slacked awhile at anyu's house before meeting up with the others
went to the "Timbre"
ate and drank there
went strolling around after the dinner
sat at starbucks and chat
went home after chatting until 2am.
had an enjoyable day
=)

Kinda late to post here but.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANYU! =D. Hope you liked the present by all of us (clarence, shiyan, huimin, junru, yixuan, zihao, yonghan, sean, shaun and yours sincerely).

2010-11-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

This is a total bullshit.
I ain't the same guy you thought you know me before.
I don't deserve this "treatment" anymore.
So don't bother giving me those stupid questions that we both know i won't answer.

Okita Sougo: Goodbye, Vice Captain. Why don't you suck on some mayonnaise in the afterlife?

2010-11-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

Dear Kami-sama,

i think i know what you are hinting me already. So you can stop your "actions". I just can't stand your agonising "actions" already.

Yours Sincerely

2010-11-17T12:35:00.003+08:00

Subtitles
It's hard to use a pen.
But it's hard to use a colored-pencil too.
It's really hard to write manga.
But hey, it's hard to live.
...
I want to be a cheeseburger.

2010-11-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

i want to know the mystery behind that "sulk"....

2010-11-14T23:35:00.004+08:00

Dear Rihanna,

if you like the way it hurts, then why didn't you like it when Chris Brown beat you up?

Yours Sincerely

2010-11-14T22:42:00.017+08:00

I went to AFA yesterday with my friends.
AFA = Anime Festival Asia
It takes place annually.
There were lots of anime merchandises.
There were lots of people cosplaying
But they all don't look similar to those anime characters.
We arrived too late to watch the concert though
Kinda wasted.
Ok then, enjoy the peektures.
=D

2010-11-12T01:57:00.002+08:00

Damned leg. Faster recover. I've got tonnes of things to do.

2010-11-12T01:35:00.000+08:00

i wonder...

2010-11-10T19:54:00.005+08:00

Sorry to those with bad eyesight, but this post consists mostly of MINISCULE words. Sooo, TOO BAD! =D

I really wasn't wrong about you. You are indeed a good person. Despite what i have done to you, you still helped me out. If it was someone else, i think i would be "stuck" already. I really wish things remain this way with me treating you as a friend, you treating me as a friend. Since you didn't read the email, i guess you don't know my true feelings for you. I reckon i better keep it deep inside my heart until this important period is over. Let's work hard together =).

I have decided to give you the 1st birthday present i mentioned. But regarding the 2nd birthday present, forgive my selfishness once more. Despite knowing it may make you happy, my heart can't bear to do this. Sorry ...

2010-11-09T23:46:00.003+08:00

I want to go running.
I want to go swimming.
I want to go to a desolated beach and shout with all my might.
I want to punch a punching bag until my hands give up on me.
I want to sleep on a hammock outdoors at a desolated beach on a cloudy day.
I wonder how many can come true...

Sleep. Now it's been a problem for me. I am exhausted mentally and physically. I want to "charge my battery". Despite sleeping early, i can't get to the dreamland early. I just keep tossing around, thinking of so many unknown things. Even my trick of focusing on a blank piece of paper doesn't work. What am i supposed to do... ?

Nice one. Very nicely done. I can't believe i fell for it again despite guessing it. But, lucky i didn't make the decision based on you. I made the decision based on a promise i made before.

The day was cloudless, but the sun had gone in. It's over for me, i guess...

2010-11-08T21:35:00.002+08:00

I fucking hate group projects. Not because of the work that is required of the group, but the grouping itself. Why do i have to go through this problem everytime when there is group projects? Why am i the one that keep getting thrown around from one group to the other group?

Initially, i thought making people happy will make me happy. But i realized, this is not the case. Because not everyone will be happy. Making people happy when i am not happy myself is also a pain. I know it sounds selfish, but i think i should start taking my OWN feelings into consideration instead of others.

You are making me even more confused. Although it seems like things have been clarified, but it actually gave me the biggest headache. I don't know whether it is your real feelings or whether it is just words said out of courtesy. I just can't take it anymore.

2010-11-06T01:11:00.000+08:00

i wish it was a "circle" ...

2010-11-05T01:26:00.004+08:00

I can't believe i discovered "something". Why didn't i realise it sooner by around 2 weeks? Perhaps that would have stopped me from my stupid act at that time. But i will still do it in the end. The reason why i did it so suddenly was because i was scared, scared of losing you. I know you said you wouldn't go back to them. But even someone as dumb as me could tell that you still love them a lot. You should also know this feeling. "Liking someone and seeing them fall for another person." This is the main reason why i did it despite knowing i don't stand a chance. I did it because i don't want to see you gone without even trying. Haiz, having said these much also have no point. You already got your "answer" to my "question"... Guess i lost a friend too. =(

Finding a gift has given me 2 ideas for the present for your birthday.
The first one, i am sure it will bound to make you flare up again and maybe give me a tight slap.
The second one, i am sure that it will make your birthday a happy thing for the period of bad moments i gave you.

2010-10-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

Can't we even stay as friends ... ?

2010-10-26T20:48:00.003+08:00

Humans are good actors in life.
A person can talk happily to people that she dislike
A person can smile to people that she dislike
A person can smile although inside he is moody
A person can pretend unbothered although he wants to care a lot

2010-10-22T00:36:00.005+08:00

I will accept everything.

I guess i am more suitable to be "laid-back" afterall.

2010-10-21T14:18:00.007+08:00

ARGH!! It's THURSDAY already!! There are still TONNES of things i want to do before school starts. I gotta sleep early and wake up early so that i can do more things. Ok, just a random rant here. That's it for today.

Just a song for you all to enjoy.

PS: I freaking like his dance steps. XD

Congratulations to you. XD

2010-10-18T00:04:00.003+08:00

Woush. Today i went for my physio-therapy. It was so damn hard trying to wake up early in the morning at 8am. =.=ll. I really cannot imagine what will happen to me when the school starts. LOL! So anyway, my mum accompanied me to the place for physio-therapy. We lost our way, but we still managed to find our way there. The exercises were easy but too tough for my injured leg to handle. =.=ll. The person applied an ointment that he concocted himself. The ointment is seriously HOT (it still feels hot now). It's not hot in the exterior, but it's BURNING hot in the interior.=.=ll. The person told me one thing that until now i find it very true and meaningful. "A person can break their limbs but their heart cannot break."

After that, i went down to lavender to collect my passport AGAIN. When i reached there and i passed her the old passport that i forgot to bring during the other time, i saw what she did and i was dumbfounded. She took my passport, punch 4 holes in the corner, and returned it to me. WTF!!! All this hassle just for FOUR freaking holes!?!? DAMMIT! However, this time is at least better. Instead of the previous "2 HOURS wait", now i wait for "45 MINS". Acceptable. LOL!

Mannn, school is going to start REAL soon. I really dread going back to school because of the "unknown" waiting for me. Nevermind, i shall cherish this FINAL week to the fullest. It's time to JUST DO IT! ;)

2010-10-15T00:42:00.006+08:00

What a bad bad bad day today. Why are there three "bad" you might ask? Because there are three things that happened to me that screwed up my day for today.

1st thing
There is a blister at the back of my ankle. I put a plaster over it before going out in the morning. When i came back, a big surprise waited for me. My shoes and socks are blood-stained. I took off my plaster. Apparently the blood SEEPED through the plaster and stained my shoes and socks. FML!

2nd thing
Why do most of the old people complain that the youngsters nowadays are rude to them? Why don't you guys stop and think for a moment who MADE them out this way? This is the best example to show you WHY nowadays youngsters are so rude to old people.

I was waiting for the lift with an old lady. When the lift arrived, i let the old lady go in. But what the heck, i haven't step in, the old lady straightaway spam press the "close" button. What the hell!? Do i look so ugly or scary or whatever stupid ideas you have in mind that you have to shut me out of the lift? Seriously, you should just look yourself in the mirror and do self-reflection.

3rd thing
I went to ICA Building to collect my passport. I started waiting in the queue at 4.55pm. There were 361 people in front of me. =.=ll. However, that wasn't the worst. When it was my turn (perhaps i should mention that it was 6pm when it was my turn =.=ll), i went up to the counter.

Girl: Hello, are you here to collect your passport?
Me: Ya
Girl: Can i have your IC and old passport?
*stuns for awhile*
Me: Old passport?
Girl: Ya, old passport also. You never bring?

I think i can stop the scenario there. As you readers can guess it already. I really didn't bring my old passport. I know you all are asking "Why you so stupid never bring your old passport?". HOW was i supposed to know? The person only told me to come back on Friday to collect my passport. She also never told me to bring anything. Seriously, what a waste of time. FML!

2010-10-14T14:05:00.000+08:00

I FREAKING HATE GETTING SUNBURNT!!!

>=(

2010-10-13T23:08:00.005+08:00

“自以为是，脸上贴金。”
Other than these, I can't think of any other description to describe "you". "You" think so much, end up it's only "your" wishful thinking. See, how things turned out. Now what should "you" do? Or rather, what "you" CAN do?

“早早死心，回家睡大觉吧。”
Wipe yourself off. You're dead, muthafucka.

-Game Over-

Give "yourself" a break. Don't predict anymore things. I know "you" think "you" are accurate, but there is no point in going through all these pain anymore.

2010-10-11T00:49:00.000+08:00

Today, i went out to settle some things. I went to check my handphone plan whether i can change my plan because i want to get an IPHONE 4 =D. I also went to make a new passport since my passport has expired already. I don't want other people to laugh at me. "Hahaha, the furthest place this kid can go is sentosa. What a loser." LOL. Guess what. I saw CHEN LIPING in Bugis! Wow, she is more skinny in person than on TV. Ok then, that's all for today. I have a freaking headache (from thinking too many stupid things?). Time for BEDDY BYE~ =D

Oh my god... i am captivated by her cuteness. TOO CUTE!!! (>.<)
I guess zhiyuan is right after all... =(

2010-10-11T00:30:00.001+08:00

Went out with anyu and meizhen yesterday
Ate "Aijisen Ramen" with them for lunch
Watched "Detective Dee" with them
Ate "New York New York" with them for dinner
Wanted to chill at anyu's house since it was early
anyu drove us to her house
Watched "Piranha 3D" and "Liar Game"
After that anyu drove us home at 3am

Sorry to anyu for all the inconvenience caused. =S. Thanks to anyu and meizhen for the enjoyable day. =D

2010-10-10T13:04:00.003+08:00

Today is the day. However, i have been up late for like the last week thinking about this "thing". Despite knowing our relationship is not that good (in my own opinion), should i go for it? Will i be considered to be like "betraying her trust" if i expressed my feelings to her? But she is a sharp one, perhaps she have noticed already? Plus i remembered that she preferred guys with CLOSER relationship. Am i bound to fail?

Please, can just someone tell me what i should do? (>.<)

2010-10-08T22:36:00.003+08:00

Haiz, today was the last day. It wasn't really a happy thing for me though. Because i did not complete what i promised you and i did not manage to do what i wanted. I said i would accompany you all the way throughout this "thing". But it ended out with me leaving you behind to undergo all this. I really feel very guilty. Looks like there is no more chance for me to do what i wanted. All the best to you. I WILL find you frequently. Hope you can join me soon. =D

I have been thinking it through with a CLEAR MIND. Is all these problems caused from our "misunderstanding"? Do we really need to have a talk to clarify all our problems?

2010-10-06T20:29:00.002+08:00

Did my IS and WISP selection for today
Rushed in to select the things i want
Despite rushing in IMMEDIATELY at my timeslot
The things i want just nice left 1 slot
and...
I GOT IT!
Lucky lucky
=D

When it feels hot on the outside and cold on the inside, it can only means that you are sick.

2010-10-05T19:28:00.002+08:00

Sorry guys, it's "EMO" session. Press "ALT-F4" or click that cute little "<--" at the top left hand corner if you don't want to bang the wall and die after reading this post.

Story 1
Am i seriously a bad friend? Why are my friends leaving me one by one? My previous clique had gatherings and it's like i freaking got outcasted. I give in my all being their friends. How did things turn out this way? Why did they leave me out? Dammit all.

Story 2
Stupid piece of trash. Told you not to think so much already. Imagine this, imagine that. See what is happening now? YOU FRIGGING GOT SCREWED! You deserved it. I have no other comments.

Linked to both stories
Do you know about the story of "Sour Grapes"? Actually i don't really remember the exact title and the animals in the story. But basically, the story is about a fox, a bird and a grape plant. The bird was eating the grape when the fox passed by. The bird asked the fox to eat the grape as it was sweet. However, the grape was too high for the fox to reach. As the fox cannot eat the grape, it stubbornly assumed that the grape was sour and not worth for him to eat. But actually the grape was sweet.

So, what was the point of me saying this story? I really hate being the fox.

2010-10-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hello everybody! Yesterday i went to Shaun's house to stay overnight with 2 friends, JJ and Joseph. Initially, we planned to catch a midnight movie. However, there wasn't any midnight movies. Damned, it was a total waste of time. So, we ended up playing our laptops until 4am. After that, i was Knocked-Out all the way until today 9am. After washing up and packing up, we left Shaun's house. Seriously, "Buangkok" really deserves the name of "Buang". Why? Because we freaking waited for around 1 hour and there wasn't a taxi. =.=ll. Due to the urgency in trying to get home fast, Joseph called a cab and we shared cab home. After reaching my house vicinity, JJ and i went to eat MacDonald's breakfast (Joseph live somewhere else). LOL! We ate TWO ROUNDS of breakfast. One big breakfast + Sausage muffin for JJ and TWO big breakfast for me. =D. Ok then, that's all for today. Time for beddy bye. ~.~

2010-10-01T02:25:00.005+08:00

Haiz, why did things turn out this way? Have my intention been exposed? Was i too obvious afterall? Are her actions actually a reply to my feelings? Girl's thoughts are really unfathomable...

Attachment results are finally out today and ...
I GOT AN A!
A for Alvin.
Thanks to this A sent by Kami-sama
Now i have finally hit my "target" of getting GPA 3.
=D

But i didn't hit my other target =(.
Silky smooth ~.~

2010-09-28T22:13:00.002+08:00

Although i got told off by my boss at work today, i wasn't really quite bothered. Why? One of the reasons, i have already stated above. The other reason is ... having kept saying that i changed since secondary school days, i realised that there are still "something" that has not changed at all. Perhaps, this "something" can be only one of the inconsiderable number of traits i have. I am actually relieved. ~.~

2010-09-28T01:16:00.007+08:00

"A leopard never changes its spots."
"Poisonous toadstools don't change their spots."
Guess i should just face it.
An irritant can't change the fact that it's an irritant.
That's the conclusion i can only perceive.
DAMMIT ALL!

And YOU! You told me what to do, and i just did it what you wanted. Now you are making it sound like all the problems lie with me. What the fuck you want, man? Stop doing these stupid things. It's fucking FUCKING pissing me off. _I_ DOUBLE DIGITS _I_

2010-09-26T20:14:00.007+08:00

Wonder Girls - Two Different Tears (Korean)

Wonder Girls - Two Different Tears (English + Remix version)

2010-09-25T20:09:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO ZHIYUAN!
Went out with the birthday boy yesterday with the class
Went to have dinner with the class at FISH and CO
Planned to have a big surprise for zhiyuan
End up the surprise got exposed
=.=ll
Strolled around
Played L4D2 with my classmates
Had fun killing each other
LOL!
Watched midnight movie "Legend of the Fist: The Return of Chen Zhen"

It's a nice movie
I frigging love the fight scenes
DONNIE YEN IS FREAKING FIT TO THE MAX!!!
LOL!
Cabbed home after the movie
Had a nice day.

PS: Sorry to zhiyuan, i think i asked a WRONG person go with us. Sorry for being "emo" throughout the thingy. Wasn't really in a good mood that day. =X

Oh my god, so cute sia. (>.<)

2010-09-22T23:37:00.003+08:00

KAMI-SAMA!!! WHY DO YOU HATE ME SO MUCH!? I go delivery then you rain so heavily. I barely walked for 10 seconds and i have to turn back. Why? Because i was soaked to the skin from my pants down to my shoes even though i was carrying an umbrella. =.=ll. I also don't understand. Why are you so angry? Is there any problem with me turning back? How do you expect me to go through the 10 minutes trip when i am soaked by staying out for 10 seconds? Why are you blaming me for the late delivery? You forgot the order and i was the one who reminded you. =.=ll

Haiya, whatever. The world are filled with people with selfish thinking.

2010-09-21T17:49:00.003+08:00

Wa, today really ain't my day.
I got burnt at the machine.
The skin now looks a bit crispy crispy.
But it's ok.
Man must have scars then look manly.
LOL!

Chef: Wa, today rain so heavily ar?
Me: *glancing outside. mind thinking "lucky now not i doing delivery"*
Boss: Alvin, bring 3 umbrellas go fetch JJ and David. They never bring umbrellas.
CHIKUSHO!
Bring umbrellas go fetch them.
...

Reached there, half my pants + shoes + socks wet.
JJ: Wa, rain so heavily. Don't feel like going back now. I scared my shoes spoil.
David: Then how?
JJ: Hey, got 2 cabs. We take go back lor. So near, cheap cheap only.
David: Ok lor, i anything. Pay money one sit in front.
*JJ sits in front*
*David and me sit behind*
...

Conclusion?
What is the point of me bringing umbrellas to them and getting wet in the process?
=.=ll
FML!

2010-09-19T21:35:00.002+08:00

2010-09-17T00:24:00.001+08:00

“若爱上一个人，什么都会值得去做”

2010-09-16T19:36:00.006+08:00

Went for my NAPFA
Met up with Sean, Zihao and Yonghan
Made our way to MAJU camp
Nearly had to do the NAPFA test despite of my condition
Quite high-tech
Equipment mostly are sensor-based
Congratulations to Yonghan for getting a SILVER
Sean and Zihao
Don't be too sad
We go train together
I sure make you get GOLD
AHAHAHA!

Watched "Devil" today
Show was not bad
The storyline was nice
The suspense was nice
The show was meaningful
"Be responsible for your actions."
HOWEVER
The show skips some scenes
The ending was abrupt (in my opinion)
But, OVERALL
It's a nice show
(Recommended for guys to bring their girlfriends along to this show)
AHAHAHA!

Peter Chao: You wish, mudafucka!
=(

2010-09-13T00:49:00.001+08:00

Dedicated to Joseph.
All the best for your NS. May you survive the "hell" so that we can go out and CHILL~. AHAHAHA!

God bless me, please.

2010-09-09T00:44:00.005+08:00

This post for today is going to be B-O-R-I-N-G. Whether you want stay if you want to know or leave if you don't want to know, I DON'T CARE.

My chinese name is 林苇杰. For those who knows chinese, you might have noticed that my "苇" is not the same as the other's "伟". The "伟" is used mostly for "伟大" where as the "苇" is used for "芦苇". "伟大" is used for saying a person is noble. "芦苇" is actually a plant, reed. I can still remember asking my mum when i was younger, "Why is my chinese name using a different character as the others?" She didn't tell me why, but she explained the meaning of the two words. She even asked me whether i want to change my chinese name from "苇" to "伟" since it is like so uncommon. However, knowing the meaning of the words, i didn't want to change. This is because my impression of plant is that they are strong. I want to be strong...

Sadded, the day that i have been waiting for so long has arrived yet i am not allowed to do a single thing. Chikusho!!

2010-09-05T02:08:00.002+08:00

Asakura Hao: Too insignificant.

I wish i can gain the ability to read people's hearts like Asakura Hao. It will be much easier for me to know how insignificant i am to others. At least, i will not look stupid thinking that i can even reach that "level" of friends. I FRIGGING HATE THIS FEELING IN MY HEART!!!!!!!!!

Success rate = 0.00-infinite-001%
Seeing how things have came down to this, i really cannot continue anymore. What should i do...?

2010-09-04T15:40:00.003+08:00

为了那个特别的人
无论你的决定是什么，我们这些朋友一定会支持你。加油~ XD

2010-09-02T00:58:00.003+08:00

Dedicated to David and Joseph
Who says that working as a waiter is see the "face of the customer"? From what i am experiencing, i think the "face of the kitchen" is more scary. The kitchen can give you more hell than customer. I don't really know how to explain here into words but you have to experience it yourselves. AHAHAHA! Or maybe because i am too dim-witted and slow. I seem to be more sensitive towards stupid things and oblivious towards important things. Sadded =.=ll. I didn't know F&B industry is actually so tough. I felt like i have learnt more here rather than during attachment. =.=ll

Looks like i can't carry out the thing i mentioned in 20 August 2010 because i reckon that my percentage has went down from 15% to 5%. =.=ll. Freaking gone-case to the max. But... NEVER BACK DOWN! JIA-YOU~!!

2010-08-29T20:05:00.002+08:00

This is not dedicated to anyone except for me.

2010-08-25T00:49:00.003+08:00

Came across this video in facebook
In my own opinion..
This is DAMN TRUE!
He showed lots of other games inside his video
Quite surprised to know most of them
Perhaps i can also qualify as a hardcore gamer
AHAHAHA!

I like especially reasons 12, 10, 9, 5, 4 AND 1

2010-08-23T22:13:00.003+08:00

CHIKUSHO!! I REALLY HATE THIS FEELING! You don't know the feeling i am talking about? Listen to this song and that feeling will come to you when you finishes the song.

I guess i can understand roughly what the old people everytime says "Time passes faster when you gets older". Now i am starting to feel that time is passing quite fast and getting worried. What if the world is really gonna end in 2010? How is it going to end? With a "bang" or with a "poof"? There are still so many things i want to do and so many regrets... Even if i can't do the things that i want, i wanted at least to reduce the regrets i have...

2010-08-20T22:28:00.003+08:00

I looked at the calender today...
20 August 2010...
...
...HUH!?
20 AUGUST 2010!?
THAT MEANS I ONLY HAVE 20 MEASLY DAYS LEFT!!
OH MY GOD!!

wait for me, please
P-L-E-A-S-E...

2010-08-19T00:18:00.004+08:00

There is a picture i want to show everybody. Here goes ...

TA-DAH!!! A HEART-SHAPED PIZZA! LOL! Actually, this is made by SOMEONE for SOMEONE. You know who i am talking about hor, anyu? Sooo romantic siol~ AHAHAHA! Although the chef asked us to help ourselves to this pizza, but oh my god, who really bear to eat this special pizza for that special SOMEONE? LOL! Ok la ok la, that is all for a JUICY story. For more information, you can contact me (but i don't guarantee i will reveal anything though). AHAHAHAH!

Went to watch "Liar Game: The Final Stage" with my friends

Nice movie

The suspense is good

The movie is exciting

The movie is also quite funny

I'm sure people wouldn't regret watching that movie.

Ok, that's all for today.

Byebye~

Frigging unlucky to the max. DAMNED! CHIKUSHO!!!

2010-08-18T00:05:00.003+08:00

Gintama episode 058

A moth flies in the dark.
In the deep darkness, a moth just flies intently.
It fears darkness and searches for light.
Just intently...
Once a moth finds light, it will fly towards it.
But that no longer has anything to do with the moth's consciousness.
The moth can no longer escape the light.

2010-08-11T18:37:00.003+08:00

KYAHOO!!! Today marks the real "END" to my Industrial Attachment Programme. Hopefully i can get an "A" from this module because i seriously need the GPA 4 in order to bring up my cumulative GPA to 3+. Now the problem is with my Liaison Officers (lecturers) rather than supervisor because my supervisor has given me the "A". LOL!

thanks to yixuan for lending me her laptop
thanks to meizhen for helping me print the report

It has been too long without going to Pizza Hut with my class. Although a long time has gone by without the class's "Pizza Trip", everything is just the same. For example, the "Sweet 'N' Spicy drumlets and the "Shoot Shiyan Session". Everything is just as enjoyable as always. =D

It's really funny how you come up with all these 'bull-shit'. Why 'bull-shit' you might ask? Because your actions contradict your words and your words contradict your words.

2010-08-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! (although it has nothing to do with me much. LOL!)

Went out with friends
Intended to watch "Despicable Me"
However
Watched "The Last Airbender 3D" instead
Here i would like to add something
DON'T WATCH 3D FOR THAT SHOW!!!
For the entire show there was only 1 part 3D
And that was ...
The Cadbury Chocolate advertisement before the show
=.=ll
ok, that's it for today
i'm too lazy for now.
bye all

2010-08-07T00:12:00.001+08:00

Phew, my attachment has finally ended. Although it should be a happy thing, i don't know why i feel a bit sian sian. Maybe i do not have any much plans for the holiday that's why i am so bored. Or maybe most of the people there are friendly and good to me that i can't really bear to leave. LOL!. Perhaps i should visit them more often next time. =D

There are several category of jobs in the world. Like business, engineering, etc etc. Among all these types of jobs, the worse job is the engineering because of the environment. Most of the people in engineering tend to die earlier. In the engineering jobs, the most worst department is the QUALITY department. The pay is low and they are stuck between the boss and the production. Scenario: Production finish the goods, preparing to send out. However, Quality department stop the shipment because goods are not in good condition. Boss will come down and ask about it. Production will have no issues because they finished their job requirements. If the goods are sent out and there are any problems, the Quality department will also get all the "SHIT" from the boss. So Quality are the worst department.

Ok, that was random. But still thanks to someone in the company for teaching me all these. LOL!

*Compatible... Too compatible...
*I hate engaging in pointless arguements. It fucking kill my brain cells thinking stupid answers for stupid questions. It also makes me feeling angry for nothing. CHIKUSHO!

2010-08-05T19:58:00.003+08:00

Phew, the toughest ordeal is over. Guess now i can take a short breather. The outcome wasn't too bad, but i don't know why am i still so worried about it. Perhaps i was mistaken and worried about some other things. =.=ll. But... HECK-CARE FOR NOW! It's time to CHILL~ *temporary*. AHAHAH!

Cherish what you have, people. You live this life ONCE. It ain't like some RPG game. where you die and revive. There ain't anything so nice and sweet. Once you lose something, it's gone FOREVER.

how the heck can i lecture people when i seem to have tonnes of regrets in life? =.=ll

2010-08-03T19:29:00.003+08:00

Having thought through all the things i have done, i can't help but wonder EXACTLY how much are my chances of achieving what i want. Because now i have a rough gauge and my chances barely seem to be nowhere near 15%. =.=ll. I just wish you can tell me what am i lacking in order to achieve what i want. =(

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