Monday, August 31, 2009 Time to MIA for the time being MIA = Missing In Action Will still blog But will not be seeing me online as much as usual 1 month later and it will be back to normal so for now DON'T MISS ME =P (though i know none will) The time for the truth to be revealed has arrived. Open your eyes WIDE, Alvin. Saturday, August 29, 2009 today finally confirmed a job. although pay quite low, but at least it is still a job. had a quarrel with my mum over this stupid job. nevermind, quite minor quarrel also. hope that this job will not be as boring as i anticipated. still got zihao accompany me work, so i think wun be that bored after all. LOL! I am sorry that i left you behind... Looks like i have a knack for making you angry. Focus, Alvin, focus. Remember what your trusty 'advisor' told you. MUST EMPLOY IT! Thursday, August 27, 2009 KYAHOO! Today had last paper, OMP. Although studied QUITE hard for this paper, i still dunno whether will pass for this paper anot. Nevermind, the main point is ... NOW IS HOLIDAY! YAY, time to earn some 'benjamins'! Too many things to buy. Congratulations, your wish came true. Tuesday, August 25, 2009 Argh, damn angry. please dun be an asshole leh. told you my phone bill burst already, you still keep asking me to contact people. cant you ocassionally contact people also? it is not as if only i need to contact them what, you also need to contact them. then why is it everytime i contact them? everytime give me stupid excuses like phone no battery or what. it make people damn pissed off, you know? Master yourself and you master your life. This is really difficult. i VERY nearly lost control of what i am going to say. Lucky you didnt hear the first part of the sentence. If not, i dun think i could get away with simply a 'No, nothing'. Monday, August 24, 2009 阿康: 为什么还没有交到女朋友? 小庄: [不能] 跟 [不肯] 是不一样的喔 斯斯: 是, 不一样. 你就是属于不能. lol, i am also [不能]. just hope that i can have a happy ending like 小庄. I feel like having a makeover. but, 'benjamins' is required. nevermind, if i manage to get the job, i will have the money already. i also want to work together with my friends. hope the guy can put us together as he said he could.may god bless US get the job. Friday, August 21, 2009 today had sqc test. i stayed up until 4.30am just to study for this test. All i can hope that is my efforts had better dun go down the drain. im so SO tired. now i look exactly how i was during sec 3, like half-asleep liddat. i can still remember wad one of my friend told me, "alvin, you very tired ar? why you everytime look so blur?" Anyway, 1 test down, 1 more to go. Sufi, Zihao and i had lunch at jurong point. then went to play awhile at the arcade before bringing zihao to the job interview, which i went yesterday. hopefully can get a 1-month job for this holiday, because i seriously need the 'benjamins'. lol. too many things i wanna do and wanna get. "Don't disturb me la" - i think this is the only sentence that you want to tell me all this while. Your actions also shows it all. All of these hurt, but i have to act like "there is nothing wrong". whether how im feeling, you also wun care anyway. i think i should better heel my "advisor" advices. i just hope that things turn out the way my "advisor" predicted. Thursday, August 20, 2009 Today went to doctor's appointment at Jurong Medical Centre. Well i had my enquires cleared, but now i have the biggest question. Should i go for operation? The doctor say that they will remove my torn part of my ligament and replace with something and put SCREWS to hold it in place. The single WORD changed my mind IMMEDIATELY about having operation. because from what i know, if screws are put in, operations have to be done frequently to replace the screws. like every 10 years or so. Wouldn't that means like i am ALREADY handicapped? Now what, should i do it, or not? "In relationships, things might not turn out the way you want it. but that doesnt means that you have to give up before even going to the 'war'." Energizer - Never Say Die Monday, August 17, 2009 Today finally played the game "Heroes of Newerth". This is gonna be the FIRST and the LAST time i play this game. The gameplay was fine, but the process was unbearable. I was lagging the ENTIRE game. I know i know, people will just say that my computer sucks or whatever thingy that have the same meaning. That is why i am not going to play "Heroes of Newerth" anymore. i feel sick. feeling hot all over, nose block, slight sore throat and slight headache. but nevermind, no one cares anyway. have i done the right thing? my heart tells me not to do it but yet, i still did it. is this really the right thing to do? i know she feels kind of guilty because her actions betrayed her. now i am feeling guilty for making her guilty. Sunday, August 16, 2009 Something that i think personally ... Girls smell sweet but i cant sense the sweetness coming from them yet. Saturday, August 15, 2009 today had Metrology and Calibration test. another failed test AGAIN. i reckon that i might fail my Decision Analysis, and Metrology and Calibration modules. I still have the lab report to do. Dammit man. Nevermind, at least i can take my time to do it during this weekend. School of Rock seriously ROCKS man. I know it is an old show. But hey, i still like it though. like the music especially. Lol. I think i better be myself. I think i haven been myself these few days, or weeks, or months. Friday, August 14, 2009 Today had a short school. We went to play board games for awhile before going to eat pizza hut. We refer to zihao, yonghan, siti, sufi and me. After eating, we went to play pool for awhile. Lol, we literally dragged sufi along with us to play pool. I'm really, really sorry about that. after the whole thing, we went our separate ways. i went to gym again today. "Each time he lifted the weights, he loved the pains that chewed his muscles." Until now, i still cannot understand this because i am in PAIN! Please don't treat me like this anymore. Is it really such a big crime, for you-know-what? Wouldn't it be fine if everything stayed the way it was, last time? Is it really impossible for us to go back how it was last time? "... to get on with life, maybe go out with some other people, relax a bit around you ... you might take a bit more notice if i was a bit more - myself." - is this for real? Wednesday, August 12, 2009 I finally started going gym. Actually it should be yesterday, but yesterday i arrived there to find that it had closed already. =.=ll. I've decided to train my body to be fitter so that i would not have stupid problems like my current knee like that. "If i am weak in the inside, i just have to be stronger in the outside." - Stupid quote by Alvin. The game, sean told me during last week, can finally be played. It is called "Heroes of Newerth". It is somewhat same as "Defense of the Ancients". I've got the beta key, but i just don't know i should play anot .... I feel like trying putting a tagbox for a week or so. To see who might come to my blog. But i don't think i can stand the disappointment ... Nevermind, i'll consider =) Monday, August 10, 2009 HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! Singapore happy Everyone happy but i not happy =( Sunday, August 9, 2009 oh shucks ok, i got ignored well done, alvin maybe this is the ONLY thing you can do making people ignore you irritating their peace bothering their lives hindering their work well done, alvin seriously well done Friday, August 7, 2009 What a big failure Didnt expected it to be so hard I guess i just have to give it up Doing it will just make me more unhappy oh wait i AM unhappy UnhappyKid =.=ll Wednesday, August 5, 2009 today went out to study again. studied until 3 instead of the expected 6 plus. guess i better study more at home then. tomorrow's DA test hopefully pass well. needed the marks in order to scrap a pass for this module. I freaking blew it. "I did it against my better judgement and i have regretted it very much ever since." This sentence is the perfect description for my emotions now. people has their own life. i also have my own life. unless our life is entwined (which i seriously doubt so), i guess i should revert back to the old plan. sorry for bothering you. i chose to leave, not because i want to lose you as a friend, but because i still want to be your friend (if i really can). I have always thought that people around me are changing, except me. Other than being vulgar, i think i did not change at all. Today, i finally realised it. Or maybe the truth was facing me but i just did not want to admit it. I'm still the immatured person from 3 years ago. Emotional-wise, still as immature as a kid. That is really disappointing. Tuesday, August 4, 2009 Ok, i made a fool out of myself. Feel so dumb. AND embarrassed. I still cannot believe that it turned out this way. I am actually still in a state of shock. She is finally getting attached. I know i should feel happy for her but what is up with this weird weird feeling? Nevermind, at least now i can tell you the answer to your question yesterday. But i know you are a clever person. Perhaps you should have guessed the answer but just that you cannot face it. I feel so hollow now... Monday, August 3, 2009 Alvin ar Alvin. What the hell are you doing? You did so well after TPM lesson and at the last minute u reverted back. How useless can you be? This is getting really really disappointing. Now it just seems that you are dumb dumber and dumbest. If dumb has got a limit, you are the ONLY one out of the limit. People also dun remember things that you said. There is just no point. "Secrets and lies, that's how we grew up ..." Cant believe this is happening to me. i keep telling lies nowadays. Hah! You finally got what you deserved. I shall not elaborate more. SEAN DOGG, YO DA MAN! PS: Both are referring to 2 different people Someone told me this today. "How to take that you are not around when you ARE around." If only it was true that EVERYONE take that i am around when i AM around...I guess im really dirty and stinky... oh great got scolded for being irritating nice one expected that to come sooner or later but still was a blow nevertheless nevermind next time just shut the f**k up return to who i am still kinda sad though Sunday, August 2, 2009 today my guitar teacher commented on me again. cos i have a bad habit of playing softly, so most of the time the teacher tells me to play louder everytime. but today was the only time that have the biggest impact on me. teacher: alvin ar. why are you playing so softly? me: testing lor teacher: testing also too soft already me: orh teacher: you now play ok-ok already but the main problem is too soft. me: *no comments* teacher: its like you have a crush on someone but you don't dare to speak out me: *stunned* teacher: you must play loud so that people can hear you. just like, if you got a crush, you must tell her wad. It would be so sO SO much better if things were so easily done. Saturday, August 1, 2009 i seriously don't know wads wrong with me, or is it with you. Every simple things you do can change my mood 360 degrees. everytime i emo, most of the times its because of you. but i dun reckon you know cos no one knows whether i emo-ing or not. no one even know i'm angry anot, except my parents. sometimes i have even mentioned it in msn or facebook. but what is irony is that fact that, the one that makes me emo, is the one that is concerned with me (maybe this is a wishful thinking on my part). nevermind, i dun think you even come to see my blog though. or maybe the problem lies in me. even simple things like priority, i think i can also get wrong. i just seem to have different views with everyone, like jack or yonghan. like what should be done first, what should be done later. Ai ya, just god dammit all la. Leave me alone. No one just understands so there is no point telling anyone. I just wanna emo, for once, ALONE. |
alvinlim. Male 08 Dec 1990 Unhappy_Kid@hotmail.com Likes ^Chocolate ^To Chill Dislikes ^Too many to mention Phrases I'm scared to fall in love, scared to fall fast, because everytime i fall in love.....it never seems to last One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter You can't buy love, but you can pay heavily for it clickin' clickin' clickin'. goldensilence. URUSAI BOGE! =D credits. DESIGN BY : smexy.love PICTURES & ICONS : photoscape & photobucket INSPIRATION : sagacity & D-READED!PAST BASSCODES : BY JANE. ( this original skin is by jane , its so long time ago , she have deleted her account , so I've plan to resubmit this skin with diff designs , if youre reading this , please let me know your link and i credit you :) , credits to jane ! ) |